I Will Break Myself

I will break myself,
lay it all flat
an offering from years ago

I will break myself
mend the pieces I have
reshape and reform all

I will break myself
sew inch by inch
part by part until typicality reigns

I will break myself
to get you to notices
I am more than your flickering shadow

I will break myself
over and
over again

I will break myself,
because each piece, no matter the amount of times
I remold them,
will be the same pieces you have never noticed.
Each piece will always be men, and you
will never see me, no matter how hard I try

I am the shadow in your light
the steps behind you
I am every rush of adrenaline that wakes you as the clock ticks midnight
I am the risk you never took,
Your only regret

I will break myself as your heart will never break for me.

rawr

....

I am getting quite tired of not having someone to turn to.

When I'm getting sexiled from my room and all I want to do is to complain to someone who *at least pretends* to care about what I have to say and how I'm feeling. BUT i don't because I don't.

I'm complaining because im in that kinda mood.